So Far, So Good

I’m a little wired right now (I knew there was a reason I don’t drink coffee after dinner…) and I’ve been meaning to blog for a while, so here goes.

I think my junior year is going to be my best year of college, if not my life (at least so far). I’ve already had so many amazing experiences in Australia and New Zealand, which I’ve obviously written pretty extensively about. This semester so far has been really awesome. Now, granted it’s only been three weeks, but I have been doing really well. I set three goals for myself for 2013. One is fitness related, which I haven’t been really great about. But, I’ve been walking all over campus and taking the 4 flights of stairs to my room most days. My second goal is academic. I want to increase my GPA this semester. It’s going to take a lot of work, but I think I can do it. I’ve been good about staying on top of my assignments and avoiding procrastination, which is really my worst academic problem. I’ve also been practically living at my physics professor’s office hours. On top of all of that, I’ve been to the library almost everyday. I normally only go there for huge assignments and finals week, but it’s also become like a second home.

My last goal is social. It’s a lot more vague than the other two (which actually have concrete numbers tied to them). It’s essentially that I want to be more social. I don’t want to live like I did freshman year, holed up in my room glued to my computer. (That is tempting, especially living in a single.) ¬†I have little goals that fall under this like: most of the time eat with a friend, spend Friday or Saturday night with friends, talk to someone new. I’m a little worried about staying true to myself. I don’t want to become a yes man or start doing things because I feel like they’ll make me fit in more. Luckily, I have great friends who care about me and won’t care if I break my “no sweatpants to class” resolution.

So far, so good. I’m sticking to my resolutions and meeting most of my little goals. And I am really happy. I mean, I always get like this the first time the weather gets above 50, but I’m noticing all these little things that are just awesome. Simple things, like laughing over a meal with a friend or working really hard and finally understanding something. It’s such a huge change from winter break. Once the holidays were over, I sort of fell into a rut. I was really lonely and I felt purposeless. I was unhappy a lot of the time. Now, I have friends everywhere. Anywhere I go on campus I have friendly¬†acquaintances who return my smile. I have a bunch of friends that I can call up for coffee or studying and they’ll be there. And when it all becomes too much, I have my tiny 9X11 room with four walls and a door that locks, that has all of my favorite material things in it. I am so happy to be blessed with so much.

 

“Just know you’re not alone

‘Cause I’m gonna make this place your home…”

In the Homestretch

I am so close to done, it’s almost a little scary. Just an exam tomorrow and and exam Tuesday, and I pack up and leave HWS for 8 months. It’s pretty much the definition of bittersweet. On the one hand, I am super stoked to be done with school for a bit. I can’t wait to spend more than 3 days at home, snuggle with my dog and cat, hang out and play tennis and watch movies with my little sister and my best friend. I’ll be able to sleep in my own bed, take showers without flip flops, and I won’t have to worry about how much of my meal plan I’m using. I’m really excited to fly to Florida with my two best friends for an awesome adventure. I’m stoked to start my internship at the MMRL, a place that I’m already pretty comfortable at and have a foundation to build on. And, of course, I can’t wait to leave on the biggest adventure of my life at the end of August, when I head to Australia for 3 and a half months.

And yet… I’m going to miss this place. HWS has become my home. I’m going to miss all of the friends I’ve grown close to this year. Lots of us are scattering across the globe. Some are graduating, and I may never see them again. The little ensemble cast of characters in my sit com of a life is getting a complete shake up. I won’t be living with my current housemates. I won’t be able to sneak down to the living room at 4 am when I can’t sleep to find Sam and Lyn snoring over their laptops. Midnight runs to Timmy Ho’s will be temporarily suspended. Laughing over webwork and chem problem sets will be put on hold. Staying up late watching Bollywood movies will be shelved for a later date. You get the idea.

I guess it comes down to change. Change is scary sometimes, but change is good. Moving from one thing to another is a necessary part of life. And I’ll keep growing, and I’ll keep changing, and I’ll keep working to be the best student, intern, friend, daughter, sister that I can be.

Yours,

Vanessa